“G\u00fczel bir kad\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc, ku\u015fkusuz d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en \u015fiirsel konusudur.”<\/p>\n
Bu \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc kanl\u0131 bir \u00f6l\u00fcm sahnesi olarak d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmekten ziyade, “ideal” kad\u0131n\u0131n manevi anlamda \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc olarak ele almakta fayda var. \u0130deal kad\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrmenin “en iyi” yolu da, onu kendisinden ve \u015fartlardan ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z olarak, i\u00e7inizde tasarlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u015fekilde \u00f6ld\u00fcrmektir. Peki kimdir bu ideal kad\u0131n? G\u00fczel, \u00e7ekici, zeki, e\u011flenceli, t\u00fcrl\u00fc yeteneklerle donat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olan “b\u00fcy\u00fcleyici” kad\u0131n m\u0131d\u0131r? Hay\u0131r, tam olarak de\u011fil. Sizi kendisine yakla\u015ft\u0131ran bir albenisinin olmas\u0131 yeterlidir. Zaten fazlas\u0131 da \u015fart de\u011fil.<\/p>\n
Konumuza d\u00f6nelim…<\/p>\n
Bir ba\u015fkas\u0131na y\u00f6neltilmi\u015f tebess\u00fcm\u00fcne \u015fahit olup, o tebess\u00fcm\u00fc hedefinden daha fazla sahiplenmeye karar verdi\u011fininde, art\u0131k yak\u0131n gelecekte tasarlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi \u00f6ld\u00fcrebilece\u011fi bir “ideal” kad\u0131n\u0131 vard\u0131. \u0130\u015fte onu bulmak bu kadar kolayd\u0131. Cinayeti i\u015fleyebilmek i\u00e7in tek yapmas\u0131 gereken onu, kendisine yak\u0131nla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar kendisinden uzakla\u015ft\u0131rmakt\u0131; yani en ba\u015fa d\u00f6nmekti.<\/p>\n
Ans\u0131z\u0131n ve anl\u0131k da olsa, esiri oldu\u011fu tebess\u00fcm\u00fc y\u00fcceltecek olan cinayetin detaylar\u0131na gelecek olursak…<\/p>\n
Cinayet mahali, hayat\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez duvarlar\u0131ndan ona seken bu tebess\u00fcm\u00fc “k\u0131skan\u00e7” g\u00f6zlerden uzak tutabilecek kadar sakin ve huzur verici bir ortamd\u0131. Rahata erdi\u011fine ve “kurban”la ba\u015fba\u015fa kald\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6re, daha fazla sessiz kalmas\u0131 gereksizdi.<\/p>\n
“Neden burada oldu\u011funu biliyor musun?” diye sordu.<\/p>\n
“Hay\u0131r…” dedi k\u0131z, \u00fcrkek ve \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n bak\u0131\u015flarla.<\/p>\n
“Buradas\u0131n, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc zincire vurulmu\u015f ve kaderine terk edilmi\u015f bir mahkumun bir yudum suya muhta\u00e7 oldu\u011fu gibi muhtac\u0131m tebess\u00fcm\u00fcne. Buradas\u0131n, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc tebess\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc onu \u015fereflendiremeyeceklere ihtiya\u00e7 fazlas\u0131 bir mal gibi sa\u00e7\u0131yorsun. Buradas\u0131n, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc tebess\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6l\u00fcme, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc de tebess\u00fcm\u00fcne hediye edece\u011fim…” <\/p>\n
Her bir kelimeyi hi\u00e7 acele etmeden, tane tane ve so\u011fukkanl\u0131l\u0131kla a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Bunlar\u0131 s\u00f6ylerken kutu gibi k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck, zifiri karanl\u0131k\u00a0 bir odan\u0131n duvar\u0131 olmayan tek taraf\u0131nda s\u0131rt\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fck bir \u015fekilde ayakta duruyordu. Olmas\u0131 gereken kap\u0131n\u0131n yer almad\u0131\u011f\u0131 odan\u0131n di\u011fer ucunda ise, ah\u015fap bir taburede, sanki g\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc olarak orada oturan “sevimli kurban” bulunuyordu.<\/p>\n
K\u0131z tepkisiz ve sessiz kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kendisine do\u011fru d\u00f6n\u00fcp birka\u00e7 ad\u0131m yakla\u015ft\u0131ktan sonra aniden duran adamla ilk kez g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze geldiler. (G\u00f6z g\u00f6ze geldikleri anda aniden durmu\u015f da olabilir…)<\/p>\n
\u00d6nce k\u0131z konu\u015ftu:<\/p>\n
“Seni anl\u0131yorum,” dedi, bir g\u00fcvercinden bir ku\u011fuya d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f zarif bir ses tonuyla. Ve devam etti teslimiyet\u00e7i bir edayla: “yan\u0131ma gel…”<\/p>\n
Ayakta dikilen adam\u0131n \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u0131z\u0131n en ba\u015ftaki \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla k\u0131yaslanamazd\u0131; y\u00fcz\u00fcnde deh\u015fet dolu bir ifade belirdi, hatta bir anl\u0131\u011f\u0131na sendeledi fakat hemen toparland\u0131.<\/p>\n
Yava\u015f\u00e7a ve kalp at\u0131\u015flar\u0131 h\u0131zlanarak k\u0131za do\u011fru ilerlemeye devam etti. Bu esnada k\u0131z g\u00f6zlerini yummu\u015f, g\u00f6z kama\u015ft\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 tebess\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc t\u00fcm ihti\u015fam\u0131yla sergiliyordu.<\/p>\n
Dokunma mesafesine gelen adam, sanki bu tebess\u00fcm\u00fcn ba\u015f d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc kokusunu almaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Keyiflenmi\u015fti. O da g\u00f6zlerini yumdu, cinayet silah\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131z\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na do\u011frulttu; eli sa\u00e7lar\u0131na uzan\u0131yordu. K\u0131z\u0131n sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan de\u011fi\u015fen havan\u0131n i\u00e7ine girmi\u015fti parmaklar\u0131. Arada ilk sa\u00e7 teliyle, bir sa\u00e7 teli kadar mesafe kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ki, bir zamanlar nereden duydu\u011funu hat\u0131rlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o s\u00f6z geldi akl\u0131na. “Sevmek dokunmakt\u0131r.”<\/p>\n
“Yine nereye dald\u0131n? Tut \u015funlar\u0131!” s\u00f6zleriyle g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7t\u0131. B\u00fcfenin \u00f6n\u00fcnde ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yiyecek-i\u00e7ecek po\u015fetlerinden birka\u00e7 tanesini kendisine uzatan arkada\u015f\u0131na bakt\u0131. Bilin\u00e7siz \u015fekilde po\u015fetleri ald\u0131ktan sonra yolun kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki kafede arkada\u015flar\u0131yla \u015fakala\u015fan k\u0131za \u00e7evirdi tekrar bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131. Tebess\u00fcm eden k\u0131z g\u00fclmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
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\nAdam i\u00e7in, bu bir \u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcn kahkahalar\u0131yd\u0131..<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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