{"id":81,"date":"2013-05-12T00:52:57","date_gmt":"2013-05-11T21:52:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.msxlabs.org\/monolog\/?p=81"},"modified":"2013-05-12T19:17:49","modified_gmt":"2013-05-12T16:17:49","slug":"ayriligin-getirdikleri","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.msxlabs.org\/monolog\/2013\/05\/12\/ayriligin-getirdikleri\/","title":{"rendered":"Ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n Getirdikleri"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Bazen en \u00e7ok yolunu g\u00f6zledi\u011fim \u015feyin ayr\u0131l\u0131k oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Beraberinde getirdikleri konusunda \u00e7ok c\u00f6mert oluyor bana kar\u015f\u0131. Bendeki ayr\u0131l\u0131k \u00f6zleminin, &#8220;beraber olma fikri&#8221;nden daha a\u011f\u0131r bast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bile s\u00f6yleyebilirim. \u00d6yle ki, ne zaman birisiyle yeni bir &#8220;anla\u015fma&#8221;ya imza atacak olsam, i\u00e7ten i\u00e7e ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n nas\u0131l olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hayal etmeye ba\u015fl\u0131yorum:<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Bu kez nas\u0131l bir melankoliye s\u00fcr\u00fcklenece\u011fim? Yine kalbime raptiye batm\u0131\u015f gibi hissedecek miyim? Yapmaktan ho\u015fland\u0131\u011f\u0131m veya yapmak zorunda kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015feyleri yapmama engel olacak m\u0131 bu ayr\u0131l\u0131k? Yeniden bir araya gelip tekrar k\u00fcsecek, tekrar bar\u0131\u015facak ve tekrar geri d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc olmayacak \u015fekilde yollar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 ay\u0131racak m\u0131y\u0131z? Ayr\u0131l\u0131kta bulabilecek miyim kusursuz birlikteli\u011fimizi?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>S\u00f6z konusu durumlarda bunlar kendi kendime sordu\u011fum sorulardan birka\u00e7 tanesi. Ama her seferinde, neredeyse istisnas\u0131z her seferinde, ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n getirdiklerine b\u00fcy\u00fck bir hevesle kucak a\u00e7\u0131yorum. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bir a\u015fk\u0131n romantik olabilmesi i\u00e7in, yar\u0131m kalmas\u0131 gerekir&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u0130tiraf etmem gerekirse arada s\u0131rada ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fckleri \u00fczerine de d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Galiba bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler daha \u00e7ok vaktimi al\u0131yor.<\/p>\n<p>Ancak bu konu, ba\u015fka bir ruh halinin konusu&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Bazen en \u00e7ok yolunu g\u00f6zledi\u011fim \u015feyin ayr\u0131l\u0131k oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Beraberinde getirdikleri konusunda \u00e7ok c\u00f6mert oluyor bana kar\u015f\u0131. Bendeki ayr\u0131l\u0131k \u00f6zleminin, &#8220;beraber olma fikri&#8221;nden daha a\u011f\u0131r bast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bile s\u00f6yleyebilirim. \u00d6yle ki, ne zaman birisiyle yeni bir &#8220;anla\u015fma&#8221;ya imza atacak olsam, i\u00e7ten i\u00e7e ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n nas\u0131l olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hayal etmeye ba\u015fl\u0131yorum: &#8220;Bu kez nas\u0131l bir melankoliye s\u00fcr\u00fcklenece\u011fim? Yine kalbime raptiye batm\u0131\u015f gibi hissedecek miyim? &#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":88,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[24,14,23],"class_list":["post-81","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-monolog","tag-ask","tag-ayrilik","tag-romantik"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.msxlabs.org\/monolog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/81","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.msxlabs.org\/monolog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.msxlabs.org\/monolog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.msxlabs.org\/monolog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.msxlabs.org\/monolog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=81"}],"version-history":[{"count":10,"href":"https:\/\/www.msxlabs.org\/monolog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/81\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":133,"href":"https:\/\/www.msxlabs.org\/monolog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/81\/revisions\/133"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.msxlabs.org\/monolog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/88"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.msxlabs.org\/monolog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=81"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.msxlabs.org\/monolog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=81"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.msxlabs.org\/monolog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=81"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}